Suffering asthma, the difficulty in breathing, causes from allergic reaction.

I’ve been suffering from unrecoverable asthma. Sometimes I wish and am not afraid to die, when in the condition of hard to get enough air to my lung, causes me the unremovable anxious and horror physically, only punch my chest to somehow relieve the frustration.

I wish to have a positive attitude to face the illness, but, it’s no strength to be gained from my inner power to support me. It leaves me helpless some time.

I’d like to find out the meaning of suffering from asthma this life? Just to learn how powerless when faces the unrecoverable illness, or finally can be strong enough to face it,  or to learn both and as well to gain more compassion to others?