Dear kids,

This is my 100 episode, so I thought I will do something special. Though I love to choose my topic 5 minutes before broadcasting and simply wing it, I thought I will write something down and read it today.

Today is my 100th episode. Though it may seem nothing to you all, but this is my milestone that I’ve come to face my biggest fear 100 times, (actually 160 times, consider I do it in both Chinese and English) I know none of you want to hear me lecture at this age, but there are so much I want to share with you both that I doubted another 100 episode will cover it all. I want to share with you all the world that I see, and the 2% of the universe that took me nearly 2 decade to slowly figure out, I want to teach you how to communicate with all spirit, and listening to the great humming music by the tree whenever we go camping… I want you to see the fairy I see and notice the goblin always like to hide in our bathroom because that’s the only place I allow them to be. There are so many things I want to share with you, that’s also why I never know which one I should talk about first whenever I hit the ‘live’ button on my broadcasting.

But today, on my 100th episode, I want to talk to you guys about the meaning of 100.

By now, I am certain that you have already have some idea what 100 means, since our society has never failed to teach us how important it is to reach 100. You have term after term of report card to let you know how close you are to being 100, or how much more you have to work in order to reach 100. If 100 is a number that represent perfection, I guess that would be the reason why majority of us living our life believing that we are not good enough.

But as your mom, you must all know I have different opinion toward 100. (as I always have different opinion towards everything) Remember Max once joked that Asian mom love As, and that’s why we are called Asian, not Bsian. You must also realize that I have never demand A from your report card. While most of the people believe 100 is a goal they can reach, I believe 100 is only a collective numbers learns from all the mistakes we make. Hey, remember that I once said to you that you will make a lot of mistakes, have your heart broken couple time, and probably fail or suck in some jobs that your boss would ends up firing you? And you simply rolled your eyes on me and replied, thanks, mom. That’s a lot of confidence in me? Seriously, kids, I was not even joking. (and why does everyone always think I am joking when I am dead serious anyway?) What I really meant was that you are going to make mistake, because who doesn’t? (and the one who tell you that they never make mistake is probably lying straight to your face. So mental note, please don’t date that guy or girl for your own sake.) But instead of having that mistake label who you are, what your value is, and sometimes even make you believe that that’s all you are going to get in life, far from 100… I really want you to look at every mistake you make as a token closer to your 100. I want you to learn from that mistake instead of defeated by it. I want you to treat every mistake as a lesson and think what you can learn from it, instead of believing that’s all you do – making mistakes. So when a boyfriend or a girlfriend broke your heart and make your believe that you are less than you are or even make you think that you will never be loved by anyone (and btw, you should know that’s a lie, because the fact that I love you had already broke that lie) , I want you to treat that relationship like a mistake, learn from it , think about how you can better yourself and believe that the better is yet to come. I do want you to try the best you can, but if you fail, treat it as another chance to make yourself a better person than you are. Even sometimes, that means you are only 0.0001% better than your last experience. Don’t ever accept anything less than who you are, because I, your powerful and asskicking psychic mom, has devoted every minute of my life to make you guys a respectful human being that is able to contribute something positive into this world. There may be, and trust me, there will always be, people who try really hard to make you a less person (because that’s the only way they know how to raise their own value), please don’t buy into their mean words and insecurity. Because they don’t raise you, I do. And I know for the fact that when most of kids are dealing with timeout, you guys are dealing with something way tougher than that, and that is me. Remember how I joked that if you can survive me, you can survive just about everything? Again, I was not joking. And that’s exactly why I want you to seek for every opportunities that will help you grow, even that means you will have to confront your own fear. I want you to try everything you can to pursuit your dream, even it means that you will have to fail 100 times before you have a tiny taste of success. Because you will know, each time you fail, it will be another point added toward your own 100. The perfection you’d always searching for in life. We don’t reach 100, we create them. Instead of thinking it’s a number you will never reach, I want you to know that you are only one step away from becoming it.

Kids, I am not a perfect mom, as you often labeled me the meanest mom of the whole world and I believe that many of your friends would probably agree with you. (but seriously, you haven’t even seen the whole world yet.) But I feel that I am becoming a perfect mom because all the mistakes that we’ve make together. I can not ask for better kids like you guys. As we all have flaws of our own, the minds to work through our mistake is what make us 100 together. You may not be 100 on your report card, or love life, or job or whatever, but you will always be an important contribution to 100 in this family, the relationship you have or any community you create for yourself.

But kids, as crazy as you’d always called me, do you really think I am here to talk to you about getting that 100 in your life? There are lots of kids in this world are trained to believe 100 is the goal they’d ever have to reach in life, but I really don’t think any of you are going to be one of those. Why? Because you are my kids. It takes super power kids to handle crazy psychic mom, okay? If you can treat every mistake as a learning experience and bring yourself to become a better person, you will soon realize that 100 is simply a collective numbers from mistakes learn. Don’t ever let your mistake label you, but understand that each time you learn something from a mistake, you are one point closer to your 100. And if you can keep believing in that, you will soon realize it’s only beginning when you reach that 100. When other people are happy with that 100 in their hand, you will then see sky is your limit. That 100 times you fail and stood up had gain you muscle to help you soar. You will not be limited by 100, but 200, 1000 or whatever number you choose to be. So don’t wait for life to happen for you, but make it happens for yourself. Don’t expect perfection, but embrace every imperfection you have and fly pass beyond that. If I, your mother, could confront my own fear and live broadcast 100 episode today, so could you. You can become so much more than you think if you only put your mind to it. Kids, mistakes happens in life to help us grow, not to stop up from living. Perfection is created by imperfection, not an end goal for you to reach. 100 is simply a number, it will never have power to define who you are and what you are not. Remember I’d always said this when you were kids? If you are not good at something, it’s not because you are not good enough.  That’s because you don’t practice it enough.   Practice anything 100 times will make you an expert, try another 100 times and see what it would make you. Understanding the meaning of 100, (really, it’s just a number) you will then see opportunities anywhere and everywhere and eventually become who you truly want to be. And that’s the world that I really want you to see.